umm really????

As you all probably know we are staying at the Ronald McDonald House in Chapel Hill, which has been a godsend for us.  I have come to realize that although our situation is pretty bad, I am seeing that it could be a lot worse. I am thankful that Shelby does not have cancer or any other terminal illness and that her condition is treatable.  However, I am finding it hard to stomach some of the people I have crossed paths with.  I am trying not to judge and by no means do I think I am the perfect mother.  However, I look at some of the other families, how they are dealing and acting and it makes me sick.

There is a free bus you can ride to the hospital from the RMH that runs every 10-15 minutes and yet some parents choose to stay at the house instead of seeing their babies.  There is one woman at the house and her baby is in the PICU.  The baby is maybe 2 months old if that and she chooses to try and score drugs instead of spending time with her child.  Also in the house there are people who are cheating on their spouses, would rather lay around and watch tv all day while their little ones are fighting for their life.  My heart goes out to these children and I want to shake the parents and knock some sense into them.  I sometimes feel like it is a reality tv show and people think this is a game.  I have chosen to stay away from these people and keep to myself because I know that I will say what I think and it will cause major problems.  I am thankful that I am older and wiser to know when to keep my mouth shut.  My theory on that is if you don't want to take reponsibility for your child you need to discover birth control and use it on a regular basis.  I just keep reminding myself that some people deal with crisis differently.  I only hope that these people get their mess together.

Having said that and venting a little bit, I am so happy with the progress that Shelby has made.  We are hoping that the washing of the left lung with finally get her back on track and we will be able to go home soon.  She is definitely my child with her little bad self and sassing everyone.  The other day she wanted her recorder and kept saying bah bah bah and pointing.  Billy and I could not figure it out and we were like what do you want.  Shelby looked at Billy started to snap her fingers at him until he figured it out.  I laughed until I had tears in my eyes.  It is so great to see her getting her spunk back and I can't wait to see how well she does after the surgery.